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Anyone Out There? [Wednesday
Oct 24th, 07 at 12:01am]
[ mood | crazy ]


I'm alive.....erm....yeah.

Lots of shiot going on right now in Tiffy's life...not so fun.

-Dad had a heart attack earlier this month.
-Mom is losing her mind and started having panic attacks and has been in and out of the hospital.
-Doctor put me on prozac, so now i'm abouts to stab someone in the belly button. @___@

Yepp. XDD

So....yeah. I'm in school still, while looking for a job. I have an interview at Joanns on Thursday, i'm hoping i can finally get hired on there.

Just a small update....leave me love if you don't totally hate me -_-;;

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Rinoa Wig [Wednesday
Feb 28th, 07 at 11:58pm]
I got my wig from Amphigory on Monday and i am sooo happy. ^_^

I finished styling it today, so i have pictures. Let me know what you think!

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Grah. I really need to update more. [Sunday
Feb 18th, 07 at 11:32pm]
[ mood | blank ]

But.....i guess when you have a boring life there isn't much to post about? *shrug*

Uhm...I finished the Bou and Teruki costumes for Sakuracon? Yupp. Well....kinda. Just need to make the Ancafe logos. I have a picture of the Bou costume (minus the heart) here:

I am just waiting to get the belts for Umi's Squall costume, and when i finish a good portion of Rinoa....which should be by tuesday...i will start on that stupid ass jacket again. FUCK VINYL. Really. It sucks.

I really wish i had lost enough weight to finish and wear Hizumi this year...but i have only succeeded in gaining weight T___T. I really need to stay away from fast food. Damn Jack-n-the-box tacos. XDDD

I keep having lesbian dreams starring a certain past lover. Give up? lol.
I mean...it's not like...oh ho ho~ a little lesbian action...it's very uhm...hardcore? Really naughty bad stuff. I didn't think my mind was capable of comming up with such filth. I know i am a closet pervert...but damn. @____@

When i'm not dreaming about her or Umi...i'm having dreams where i show up to SC without having packed or costumeless. *shudder* Hate those damn dreams.

I think that's why i'm working hard to get everything done.

Hmm...yeah. I painted my room yesterday. Purple. Yepp.

*shifty eyes*

I keep thinking about someone and it's making me sad. Although the relationship went wrong in the end and probably never would have worked. I just keep wondering 'what if'. I hate having those thoughts. I will never be satisfied. One kiss from _____ that's all i want.


I'll update with more cosplay pictures later.

I think i'm going to go hang out with D up in Tacoma tommorow. I haven't seen her in a long time. The last time i really hung out with her, she threatened to kill me because she thought i was trying to steal Ruk away from her...@__@
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blarble [Tuesday
Jan 23rd, 07 at 2:29pm]
[ mood | bored ]

I kind of fell out of the idea of complaining about my life....but i feel right now that it is neccesary to let my friends know what has been going on. I won't go into too much detail...but....just a heads up.

First off, (and most shocking) I dropped out of Beauty School. (And if i hear one more rendition of 'Beauty School Drop Out" from Grease...i will kill someone -_-) I just didn't like it. Simple as that. I love hair coloring...but i felt very uneasy when it came to the whole cutting aspect. It's just too much pressure for someone who has anxiety issues like myself. Once you cut it wrong, you cut it wrong. You can't glue it back on and try again. It's a one time shot and i hate that. That is what scared me off. I don't want people to hate me for all eternity because i cut their hair wrong. -_-;; Also, i found out that after putting out over $10,000 for tuition and tools, i will still only start out making minimum wage after school. I could just get a job at McDonalds for christ's sake and make more. Pretty dumb ne? I'm not going to let my parents throw away their money if it will not be profitable to them or me in the end. So i have decided to go back to school in the spring at a local community college for an Associates in Business for Fashion Merchandising. My life goal is to be a fashion designer, so it will be a step in the door until i am able to get to design school. (You see, i am considered a dependant until i am over 24 years old. So that means that even tho my parents aren't willing to pay for my tuition at a design school, what they make determines whether or not i get financial aid. Gay ne?)

I am going to use this break to work on costumes. I am very close to finishing Umi's Teruki costume. (He looks very cute in it by the way ^_^)
And i still need to make the shirt for Bou before that costume can be considered completed. Yupp. Then i still have to do Rinoa and finish that godawful Squall jacket. Vinyl is sooo unforgiving.....-_-;;;;

Umi and I have been having some issues in our relationship, but i blame that on my giddyness. All has settled down now, which is good.

My 19th Birthday is this comming saturday. How am i going to celebrate? Party at the stripclub my friends. Lol. I'm Bisexual (i think...) and i like to give naked ladies dollar bills while they prance around in front of me. hahaha. I'm a closet pervert...shhhh~ Don't tell ^_^

If u hadn't heard, i'll be hosting a Visual Kei panel at Sakuracon. ^__^ Yay~ There will also be prizes for a raffle i am going to do, so bring friends!! I'm not sure how many prizes, but the lovely Kei-chan Haewon has offered to send me some prizes to help out. ♥

So yes. That is pretty much my life in a nutshell lately. Sorry if i've seemed lazy and withdrawn. Cause i know i have been. I'm just trying to get my life back onto some sort of track right now, and i hope it will end up being the right one.

So i will see you all later.

Much ♥,

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I'm baaack~ [Sunday
Nov 19th, 06 at 1:49am]
[ mood | tired ]

So...uhm...do to the one request i got to come back *pout*(Thank you Miyuki XDD), i'm back ^_^;;

I really don't know what to say for this post.

I guess i shall just give you all an update on what has been going on.

I'm going to school now, at Clover Park Tech for Cosmetology.
It's been decent so far, although some girls in my class think it is okay to tease me behind my back. *grumble* Oh well. Not everyone in this world is nice. I've recently decided that they suck and if they want to have an opinion about me based on my looks, then fine. They don't know the real me. Ehh...

Umi(Ryan) and I are still together ^______^ <3!!
As of December 5, we will have been together for 1 year.
This is my longest relationship ever, and i hope it doesn't end anytime soon.

Just a small update for you all....or more...for the only one that cares. XD

I'll go more in depth later. It's nearly 1am and i must wake up early to do my housechores...so i can pay off the $170 debt i have to my mother due to christmas shopping. Ick. -_-;;

Buh byeee~

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Anyone out there? [Sunday
Nov 12th, 06 at 11:30pm]
Just curious if anyone still has me on their list.

I'm thinking about comming back to LJ...@_@

If you see this, please comment ^_^
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!!!!!!This livejournal is closed!!!! [Tuesday
Jul 11th, 06 at 1:08am]
[ mood | cranky ]

----Livejournal now CLOSED----

Akui has died.


Elitist Jrock fans....Fuck You. [Sunday
Jul 9th, 06 at 11:34pm]
[ mood | pissed off ]

Just because i am a white Visual Kei fan...it does not give you the right to assume that i am some clueless fangirl. I love the music and it's not just "Oh..pretty Japanese boy with make-up and awesome clothes OMG *orgasm*". I do agree that there are people like that out there....but i am not one of them.

I cannot count the many times i have been made fun of for being a slightly chubby J-rock cosplayer. So what? I am a bit on the chunky side....and maybe my hair isn't as straight as it should be for the cosplay...or my make-up might be off. At least i try right?

Also....just because i cannot pronounce something the 'correct way' doesn't make me a dumbfuck.
Whether is Antic Cafe of Antique Cafe...it doesn't matter...they are still one of my favorite bands regardless of how i pronounce it.....and don't even get me started on how i couldn't pronounce "Raison Detre" Apparently..."Raison Detray" is no where close...but am i french? NO!

Believe me....if i had the choice to be born in Japan and actually be Japanese...or just asian in general, i would have done it. But i am who i am and i am sick of people rejecting me just based on how i look.

Who the hell started the whole "Just because you speak English and aren't Asian...that means you are shit!" thing?

What do i have to do to please you fucking people??

You are the reason why my confidence is always so low. I would love to be in the "Cool crowd" But i am far too intimidated by you jerks.

And...there is nothing wrong with going to a con to see a Jrock band. Sure...it's not the best setting for the band...but some of us don't have the money to travel to Japan or anywhere within the US to see a band.



I just stumbled across a forum......and yeah...i shouldn't have read it...but...it was like a trainwreck you know?

I just wish that people would look past skin color...and such. The more i hear about this stuff, the less it makes me want to go to Japan. I'll always want to go...but i fear being called a "Gaijiin" and being laughed at because of misc. things pertaining to my american background.

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Stolen from Tat [Sunday
Jul 9th, 06 at 11:21pm]
[ mood | thirsty ]

1. Pick your birth month.
2. Strike out anything that doesn't apply to you.
3. Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.
4. Copy to your own journal, with all twelve months under a lj-cut.

JANUARY: Stubborn and hard-hearted.
Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at
people's flaws and weaknesses
. Likes to criticize nyahahahahar.
Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and
has deep thoughts.
Knows how to make others happy. Quiet unless excited
or tensed.
Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses
but prone to colds *muttergrumble "damn rhinitis"*.
Romantic but has
difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social
abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

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Going to die... [Thursday
Jul 6th, 06 at 12:18pm]
[ mood | scared ]

So..whenever i watch the news i get scared when i hear about other countries threatening to bomb us. Well....supposedly North Korea is going to be shooting missles at the US...and guess where they are supposed to hit? WHERE I FUCKING LIVE!! Stupid fucking North Korean bastards....

and what is Bush going to do?? Absolutely fucking nothing. Yepp. My home is going to be destroyed and i am going to die if this happens. So....i guess this is goodbye for whenever it does.

Good job to all you republican fuckers who voted for Bush. My death will be on your hands. I hope you are happy.

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You touched my Tra-la-la.....my ding-ding-dong [Friday
Jun 30th, 06 at 4:46pm]
[ mood | restless ]

Rave tonight!! Yeah!!! Lil' ol' me is going to her first rave. Unity. W00t???

I admit..i'm kinda scared..cause..i've been warned that i will have to fend off gross people of both sexes since i guess it's obvious i swing both ways? (Is it really that obvious?? *surprised*)

Oh well....

Umi doesn't want me to go. He's all freaked about it. I'll be okay tho...i may not be able to beat people up, but i can kick people in the balls! Umi should know this, cause i hit him in the balls all the time. *giggle* Is it wrong that i do that just out of sheer entertainment? I mean..come on...watching him roll around on the ground holding himself almost in tears is amusing. Yeah...it is wrong. I'm a bitch. Oh well....*grin*

I just wonder how i will protect myself against girls? Give a swift kick to the Vag then run? Ehh..i dunno.

Like i said, this will be my first rave..and well..i'm sure i have the wrong impression about it.

I'll be sure to take video and pictures, cause my rave daddy (Shan) will be dressed up as either Kaoru or Reita ^_^!!!. I really hope he goes as Reita..cause......well...

MUST....POKE...NOSE COVER!!!! *spazz*


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Yeah...i have an obsession with making raver bracelets...as "Plumpy The (Raver) Panda" is so cutely modeling ^_^. 30 bracelets and counting...yeah..i need to start sewing again...or i could just get a life...yeah...that too. -_-

To everyone going to AX: Have fun ^__^!! I'm sad i can't make it down there this year...but i'll be there in 2008 for sure. Scouts honor??

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M10M concert... [Monday
May 22nd, 06 at 4:15pm]
I think it's pretty much official that i said i hated Mana. But...i just hate Mana fangirls mostly ^_^;;; They annoy me so much that i begin to hate their fandom as well -_-;;


I'll be at the M10M show ^_^;;; I need to pay my respects to the person who influenced my beginning love for Visual Kei....plus.....FINALLY a VK band is comming to Seattle.

I'm soooo fucking going ^.^
(I'm even going to try to drag Umi along..and dress him up. KAWAIIIIII!)
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☆Costume sale☆ [Friday
Feb 10th, 06 at 2:57pm]
[ mood | awake ]

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Jan 15th, 06 at 1:51am]
Changed Layout again...this time to Kra.

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Jan 15th, 06 at 12:32am]
[ mood | disappointed ]


Lately i've been telling myself that i hate Kei. Yes. Just throwing that out there.

If i hated her, i should be able to rid myself of her 100% right? No attatchments?

I keep everything she gave me (minus photobooks and Jrock cds) in a box under my bed. I'd love to throw out the tapes...but her voice is so beautiful...i respect her as a vocalist far too much to do that. No matter what happened between us.

But that's just the thing...

What happened?

I considered her my best friend although she lived miles and miles away T_T. I think "love" is what fucked us up. Oh well. Too late to take it back. Jeeze..i haven't talked to her in a long time....only because everytime i see a picture of her or see her online..i feel spiteful. Deleting her from myspace/here/msn remedied that....but fuck.
I miss her a lot....
I miss being her friend damnit...

We just...fell out.

I don't know what to do.

I kind of want to patch things up and try to rekindle our friendship which i treasured so much...but i feel it may be too late. I've been so absorbed with Ryan that i screwed everything over with my friends. Sorry guys.


I tried out my serger for the first time today. I LOVE THAT THING!!! It's soo cool. *spazzes* I love how it cuts and such..hehe....<3

That's all right now. I don't know if i'll update before my birthday or not, so until then...bai!! Love you all!!

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Wheee~ [Sunday
Jan 8th, 06 at 5:28pm]
[ mood | cheerful ]

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Jul 11th, 05 at 12:26pm]
[ mood | drained ]

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1.!!!!We must have something in common!!!!!
2. Please be a fan of J-rock/Visual Kei.
3. Please know what cosplay is.
4. Please only add if you actually want to get to know me for my personality.
5. Only add if you update your journal on a regular basis, and comment. I don't need any LJ stalkers..<.<;;
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